My brother died Sunday night? He had asked us not to check on him for a couple of days if we couldn't reach him, so my nephew went to his house today. He was my rock, I said his name before I said mommy. He put me on my first horse, and motorcycle. He taught me how to shoot and throw a knife. Most of all, he loved me, no matter what, he was always there. The last time I talked to him, and he was thinking clearly, he told me to, "be good, and be brave. Don't let me down, baby sis. I love you." My heart is breaking.
I'm sorry you are hurting right now, and will hurt for some time ahead. My sympathies to you and your family. Take comfort in knowing he is still your brother, he is still around and still a part of your life, however in spirit form. Best.